Her death has occupied me for days. I reread all of her interviews online and realize how brave she was. She mentioned everything, especially her prejudices about the Dutch. In a 2011 broadcast by Pauw en Witteman, the writer explained in a calm and clear way why it was so important for her to be able to express herself in a rebellious way.
I recognize myself in her. In addition, her suicide concerns me. She seemed to be suffering from severe depression.
I don’t like one of the questions: Have you ever felt worthless? That word has such a negative connotation and an additional value judgment. It implies that you are of no use in society. The results show that I do not need to make an appointment with the doctor.
Especially because this is often accompanied by the thought of suicide. People can call the special number 0800-0113 if they have (acute) suicidal complaints and want to be helped.
But what if talking no longer helps? Naima El Bezaz left behind a husband and two daughters, yet she decided to take her life. Leaving them with great grief and trauma. How severe must your depression and suffering from it be to see no other way out? Suffering from recurring depression is a lifelong struggle with yourself. Not only the taboo on this, but also that on suicide must be broken. These two often go hand in hand.
I think about who could be deeply unhappy around me. At first sight I wouldn’t know anyone, but that doesn’t say anything at all, that one photo taught me. That question in that online depression test still bothers me. “Have you ever felt worthless?”
Couldn’t it have been better: ‘Do you ever feel valuable? And for whom? ‘ Just like that well-known cosmetics brand says in its commercials: “Because you are worth it.” Because you are worth living, have the right to live or die.